Concept drawings

I’d been doing a lot of concept pieces before and after the exhibition in Bristol and when I came to a final decision about the degree show and what I wanted my project to be, I redrew them all to what I imagined they could look like as finished pieces. In a sense, final concepts.

I was using watercolour, as I wanted a certain density as well as a transparency to the outcome. Knowing that the final images would have to be painted on MDF was a bit worrying because I knew they weren’t going to come out looking the same. I could visualise the changes to an extent but I still couldn’t fully anticipate the outcome.




Initial concepts 

 At first I wanted to represent the idea that the bubbleverse was in fact all the particles of the body of the primordial creator god. I ended up drawing this guy thinking, I shouldn’t limit myself to a strictly human body shape, even if it’s massively simplified. if it’s an entity of unfathomable dimensions then I can just let my mind go crazy and see what comes out.

I was especially pleased with the watercolours I was using at the time because I was getting bright and vivid colours, even when diluted. I had the thought to add the heart as a transparency to the great emotion which drives this being, out on display like an emblem but also a core part of the being itself.

Unfortunately I drew this being for no reason – I had already decided to discard the rainbow creator and replace it with the mirror creator. The whole idea that god created us in his image, that we are god and god is us… and most importantly- the self-reflection in the context of the universal genesis.

Further on, if I decide to continue my work on the project, I will definitely find a use for this concept drawing. Not just yet though.

3.3m concept


For the recent formative assessment I wanted to show concept artwork and a storyboard for the animation I’m working on. Instead, I decided to create a continuous drawing which tells the whole story.

It is a mixture of a number of creation myths and my own interpretation of scientific discovery. The story begins with the bubbles of the multiverse, each one its own universe. We then dive into one and witness, bit by bit and as a whole, the creation and development of what we soon realise is our own world.

The image turned out to be 3,33m which I thought quite intriguing. I used pencils, acrylic, gold, silver and white pen, and a bit of gouache.










Any comments, feelings, and generally creative criticism of all kinds would be greatly appreciated :)

Constellation Yr 3: Contribution (PDP)

In the context of Constellation the past year has been nothing but pivotal and excruciatingly heavy – stress became a key word and there was no way to truly relax even during breaks and holidays. This time last year we were having our first lectures about what our dissertation is and how we should be starting to think about it. Most of us left those lectures even more confused than when we entered. At least that entire process started early enough to allow us enough panic time before we had to actually sit down and get some work done.

It took me a while to find what I wanted to write about. Not because I had no ideas but because I had too many to choose from. We were instructed to write about something we love and wouldn’t get bored of easily. It was difficult to align that with my idea to write about something I find important or at least inspirational. I could’ve chosen to write about anime and gone on and on and on about Studio Ghibli, Akira and all the rest of my favourites, I could’ve written about comic books and the ways they influence our lives, and gone on to analyse the works of Moebius, Crumb and so many more. I could’ve gone into tarot cards and alchemy and all the illustrated manuscripts, which were the basis for modern scientific practices. I could have written about so much… but I didn’t. I chose to focus on perhaps the one topic, which could never be truly explored in its totality because its subject is infinite in essence.

Once I truly started thinking about it the answer appeared in my mind, as if on its own. Memories started re-emerging of my 12-year-old self tirelessly writing lists upon lists of gods and goddesses and what their powers were and which mythology they were from, grouping them in all sorts of ways. As soon as I remembered my notebooks and attempts at storytelling, I knew that it had to be something to do with all that. I wanted to relate the idea to my practice, I am in art school after all, so perhaps I should look at the visual side of the matter – that made for the initial question: Why do we visualise gods and goddesses the way they do? In essence, I did not agree with the idea that each divinity was meant to look in a specific way – why does Aphrodite have blond hair, why does Zeus have to have a big bushy beard, why are they curly, why aren’t they fat, questions of all sorts, often shallow and not necessarily promising. But every brainstorming session is bound to produce more than several ridiculous bits and pieces. Eventually, the question morphed to Why do we even depict them as human? As being existing in different dimensions, it makes no sense for them to be limited to such a thing as the human body, and surely they can’t be defined by its appearance. So why do we put so much emphasis on the depiction of a form, which is just one of the many shapes a god can take within our world?

God and religion aren’t topics I enjoy talking to people about, mainly because of the endless disagreements on the matter. I don’t particularly enjoy having to put concepts like “GOD” into academic terms and definitions, as it is not only impossible but purely ludicrous to “define” something which is undefinable by definition. People love talking about god, up in the sky, judging form his throne in the clouds; they also love drawing and picturing the old man with his beard and stern face and robes and sandals. Perhaps this is why I never found the appeal of religion – you could be completely in touch with nature, and follow basic moral principles, you could be spiritual and devoted to your faith but why do we have to have someone’s restrictive ideas pushed down our throats since day one? How could we allow for such a limitation to our perspectives of the world?

Of course, we all have our own views on the matter and I don’t want to disrespect anyone’s understanding of this highest power – because that is what it ultimately is – a highest form of power, which we all believe in, under one form or another. For some it’s Buddha, others call it Allah, or God, but no matter where we look, there is always a concept of that which is transcendent of everything else – its name and shape are just the product of cultural differences. This is exactly where I’ve rooted my entire question.

Titled Art and the Divine: Visualising the Unimaginable, it is, in essence, an exploration of how gods and goddesses have been depicted throughout time and in different environments. I won’t talk much about the dissertation itself; but it is a piece of work I am immensely proud of, as I never thought I was capable of writing something so consistent and so lengthy. What surprised me the most was that I ended up going over the word limit by about %50, and that was before writing the introduction and conclusion. My topic was more extensive than I’d imagined, even without being as analytical and explorative as I wished. There was so much I wanted to write about and cover, but 10,000 words is barely enough to even get my point started.

I believe our dissertation group was blessed with one of the best possible tutors – Mahnaz Shah. Without her guidance, commentaries and patience, I believe I would’ve lost faith in both my writing and myself a long time ago. It is truly a wonder, to be inspired by your own studies and trusting your own perspective on matters you wouldn’t imagine to ever view academically.

I may have suffered creatively (in Subject and personal projects), but I have to say, every bit of it was worth it – my mind has expanded exponentially and is ready to be filled with even more wondrous ideas.

Here’s the visual cover I did for the dissertation (a test-collage from last year’s Constellation lectures, when we were asked to depict our reality), followed by a short excerpt, which in my opinion manages to sum up the entire piece.

cover 001

“Perhaps the infinity of depictions of god is symbolic of the infinity which is god. “

what can I say….

love in gold and silver

I did this last night, like I used to, as a way to clear my head and subconsciously express my emotions, thoughts and inner states. With my personal, social and work lives taking turns in every possible direction I cannot help but feel dizzy (in a very emotional sense). It sounds ridiculous but I do have so much love to give, so much love for the world, so much love for life and its mysterious ways… In a way I feel aware of everything all the time… Something which causes my mind to overload on a regular basis. But that’s fine, because it is those times that I come up with the most interesting concepts………


The last 3 posts were in fact answers to the three questions written on my feedback form from our formative assessment about a month ago. I was told to take some time and work on a statement, so I decided to take these questions as challenges… hence the writing.

I do understand that perhaps I can shorten them.. considerably… but what can I do when it feels like there’s so much to say? It’s like as soon as such topics arise people just nod and look away. A constant “yes I’m aware of this but I choose not to engage.” WHY? Even when talking to the tutors about my idea, which I have done over and over again since the start of the academic year, it feels like each time I’m talking to a wall – no response, no thought, no nothing. Do they not see that what I’m exploring are universal concepts?! Do they not have their own opinions on the matter?! I refuse to believe that they haven’t thought about such things at some point or another.

I’m tired of wondering. I’m tired of thinking. This is what it is. These writings are a small fraction of everything I’ve got going on in my head, and it will be a miracle when I finish my statement. I don’t know how to stress the importance I believe this has – mutual understandingIn a way I end up taking everyone’s position on love, unity and cooperation for granted… am I just a naive dreamer hoping for a brighter future? Or am I one of these people, whose light is constantly smothered by the commercial bullsh*t of “society”.

This, whatever it is, that we all live in is not a “society”. It’s more like a machine designed to swallow up creative, thinking individuals and spit our mindless conformist consumers… it’s an endless struggle… until one remembers that they are not subjected to this system, that they are a building block that could be a part of something infinitely better.

This way of thinking, “someone else will do it”, isn’t working. It never has. “Be the change you want to see in the world.” No more excuses…

AYLY3 / Revolt (a)

 Are You Lost Yet is a free zine published by young creatives, with the idea to “to pair up young writers with photographers, illustrators and graphic designers to make a zine that reads well, looks great and encourages young people from Cardiff and beyond to express themselves.” ( Our friend in uni who is involved in the making of the zine told us we could contribute to the third (upcoming) issue, and I was all for the idea.

The topic was Revolt and I was certain I could come up with something inspiring and unifying. While I was intently listening to the new Muse album (Drones), I did a few sketches of conceptual pieces like a man in a wasteland and a little bit of writing which says until there’s nothing left, or an old woman holding up a mirror that shows the faces of a police force army. But in the end I couldn’t give soul to any of them. I soon realised something and changed my entire research perspective.

concept sketch for my final piece, the goddess of revolt, justice and balance

In my dissertation I am looking at gods and goddesses, what they represent and how they’re represented. What if I twist the idea of revolting, and relate my work to inspire and to support my arguments…?

My idea was simple…I looked up:
Adrestia (goddess of revolt, just retribution and the sublime balance between good and evil)
Dike (Roman: Justitia) (goddess of justice and the spirit of moral order and fair judgement based on immemorial custom)
Astraea (the virgin goddess of innocence and purity)
Nemesis (the goddess of divine retribution against those who succumb to hubris)

and came up with the invocation of the hope for justice that societies around the world are standing up for. The representation of a higher hope for retribution and ultimately peaceful coexistence with each other, with all other species and with Nature.

colour concepts/ for children

And then there was colour!

‘The Mermaid Who Couldn’t Swim Deep’
‘A Trip With a Dirigible’

I did more finalized concepts for two of the stories. The IMG_8503Mermaid Who Couldn’t Swim Deep and A Trip With a Dirigible. I did a colour concept drawing for Dancing in the Moonlight. There’s a few more images but I’ll be keeping those in my own albums.

concepts / for children

 Around the beginning of summer I did a few concept drawings for three original fairy tales for children by a Bulgarian author. It was an exciting project and I quite enjoyed doing the artwork for it as the stories were so rich in characters. I hadn’t done anything so focused in a long time, I always try to add meaning and ideas of my own, so to me it was all about going back to that point of drawing from visual imagination – what we see in our heads when we read a story.

I tried to come up with original ideas with traditional tools, so to speak. I looked up a lot of old illustrations to fairy tales like Arthur Rackham, Virginia Sterrett, Tōshi Yoshida, and Cicely Mary Barker, but also a lot of contemporary ones like Angela Barrett, Chiaki Okada, Isabelle Arsenault, and the concept art for Tangled and Enchanted. It was incredible to look up all those illustrators I had glimpses of when I was younger, they were the most beautiful and magical things I’d seen and in a way they made me fall in love with illustration. So I wanted with this project to inspire the same thing but at the same time, not simplify it as much as a lot of illustrators today seem to do for children’s books.

So what I came up with as initial sketches were these…

I really enjoyed working on the stories even though I wasn’t sure what exactly I was aiming for in terms of a visual pattern, specific style or touch. That started becoming much clearer once I started working on the coloured images. 

On ‘Mannerism’

This year’s option choosing proved to be quite hectic and in the end I didn’t get into my first choice… which proved to be the best thing that could’ve possibly happened because I got into the perfect option.

In Mannerism with Dr. Mahnaz Shah we get so philosophical, sometimes people get too confused by the depth of conversation. I love these lectures and each time I leave them with my mind blown to bits, and I can’t even compose sentences properly for a while after.

I can’t write about every single discussion we’ve had but we study about mannerist artists and try to objectively look at their work and understand/interpret it, see the deeper meaning behind the seemingly obvious and obscure. We look at the characteristics which make Mannerism and connect philosophies, knowledge and ideas from thousands of years ago (ancient Greek philosophy) to artworks by da Vinci, Michelangelo, Bronzino & more, and then we connect these to contemporary art (1880-today).

It is incredible how much knowledge people had and how vast and expansive it was. The mannerist artists were so much more than just people with incredible artistic skill, they were incredibly intelligent and intellectual, they were mathematicians, architects, physicists, chemists, philosophers…

Those lectures have made me see how lacking my own knowledge is. How much history and philosophy I’m missing from my life. It’s one of those feelings of something that would take more than my entire lifetime; something that makes me sad because of its incredible immensity and utter hopelessness. All I could do is get on with it and see how far I can get.

Life is beautiful and full of knowledge just waiting to be shared.

I could not be more inspired.



I Predict… An Idea

So what’s the idea behind the TAROT cards? What was I thinking? How does it connect to the idea of Memory and Prophesizing it? Well, Here goes…

The whole idea of prophecies being depicted by cards  is simply exciting for me. The fear of the unknown is doubled and you end up with your heart beating really hard against your chest and listening to every single word of the interpretations. When I heard that we have the option to make a set of cards in this project called Prophecy I immediately adopted the idea of TAROT being my project for the next 2-3 weeks. But at the beginning I wasn’t quite sure how to connect it to the different options (Books, Human Movement, Political Activism, Memory…). But then an idea came to me. Let’s go overboard, we’re already halfway into sci-fi and fantasy by focusing on the future, that’s what my idea screamed.

Remember the day when you first saw the Reading?
Remember when it all came true?
Remember how you came to find the Meaning?
Do you now have a different view?”

This is a little thing I came up with, which I’m going to put on a poster. The cards will be beneath it in a standard reading spread, face up. The main reason why I’m doing this is to make people feel the same uncertainty they always feel when it comes to the supernatural and mystical. This poster presents a look into the future – it is the you from the future, who remembers the day when you saw the Tarot reading (this very day) and it makes you think about how you get way over there (on the poster). It makes you wonder what happens next. Does the reading come true? How does it come true? Will your future self remember this moment… This whole thing pulls you into a future-bound vortex of uncertainty and hope and fear…

By keeping to the authentic for Tarot cards drawing style – woodcuts – I strive to bring forth the sense of familiarity, I want the viewer to see a trustworthy set of cards, normal even. But then they will notice something isn’t really normal. It will be (even if only a little) intriguing.

In overall I would say that thoughts of the past are memories, thoughts of the future are prophecies. By mixing these two we come into this project called Prophecy that focuses on Memory. By the thoughts of the past, or Memories (that are being thought by the future self), and showing a deck of cards on the table, I invoke thoughts of the future, hence Prophecy.

I love working on this project because of my love of Tarot, future, natural balance and fantasy. You can see concept art and the actual brief in the Related articles below.

Cheers, I’ll keep you updated ((((: Now enjoy the magic of the Tarot de Marseille


P.S. You can see here some of the cards I have chosen for my own set.